hi
sometimes I just really do wonder what in the world I got myself into. it's as though everything I say is the wrong thing to say to him. is everything that I do or say done in a state of volatility? my parents said the same thing about me. and I get that. I just don't see ruben and I really working if it always comes to arguements. it seems as though every arguement we have us somehow one hundred percent my fault. recently it seems as though we are slowly but surely drifting apart. it's scary, I know especially with the little one coming. I don't want my baby to grow up without a father. I just want things to work. ruben is a great guy, sometimes I just wish he were not so critical and analytical of me and my many faults. I know I have a short temper, and I need to shut the frick up for the sake of my baby. but it's just so hard. sometimes I wonder if I truely am CRAZY
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